it's been awhile since I've visited this...mejo inaamag na tong blogger ko...hahaha :]] anyways...I'll update this thing from now on....

yesterday, I found the akomismo tv ad of my good friend & co-teacher, KA...I'm sooo proud of KA, hahaha :]]



ayan...wala lang...anyways...hmmmm...what to talk about....

I've been having discussions over the past few weeks with some close friends about my life....now, actually, I'm really thinking positive...trying as much to have a positive air in me....I try not to think about the negative things....I try to smile even if sometimes I'm feeling down....

I don't know...I am depressed....I don't know why.....maybe because there are some realizations that I can't comprehend....there are so many what if's in my head....sometimes....I just want to sleep and think blankly....

teacher kate was asking about my ex awhile ago, what happened to us, and if there is no chance of us re-uniting....too many questions....too soon.....

I've loved him, of course, I did....it never worked-out between us because while we were together, he bluntly admits that he still thinks of his ex....that girl who left him for some guy....we were together and yet he was still thinking of his ex...

it was too painful for me...when you love someone, you always see to it that you give 100 and more percent to your other half....I did that exactly, but what did I get in return? he was only giving me half of his heart...

sabi nga nila, pag 'ex' na ang pinag-usapan, talo ka na....that was what exactly happened to us....so I said to teacher kate, "teach, nung kami pa nung ex ko, issue samin yung ex niya, hindi nag-work out yung amin kasi mahal niya pa...."

-------what i realized-----------

love was never my forte...up until now (-_-) hahaha

haaaayyyy.....I'm sick and dead tired of everything......

I need to find my solace....my self....

I need me....not anyone else....

I hope I can get ME back

soon