I was watching Dear John awhile ago.

Weird, that it just popped into my head that I wanted to watch it. To give you some history about myself. I was once a US Marine girlfriend. A couple of years ago. I was still in a relationship with the Marine when Dear John came out. I never dared watch the movie because I know I will feel miserable. My relationship with him was on and off. Until I finally decided to cut all the ties.

I bought a dvd of Dear John. I watched it earlier and there. It hit me. I saw myself in the exact predicament that the girl in the movie was. The Long Distance Relationship turmoil.

Being in love with my ex was the most beautiful thing that ever happened to me. It was true love. Distance did not matter. I was loyal to him. When we were together, it was pure love but I had doubts because everything was a secret. He had a lot of secrets from me.

Watching Dear John made me realize that he just did what he did. I would not understand how his life worked so he never did bother to explain much. It’s only now that I learned to appreciate what exactly he was doing.

I realize why it never worked-out. My ex was dedicated to his job. He would die for the country. Just as John Tyree was. We love each other but US being together was just a mere fantasy.

That’s why I cried when I watched the film. I saw myself in that situation. A lot of people cannot understand how hard it is to be in a relationship with a soldier.