Don't get me wrong. I mean, I'm not looking for love.

Ako na mismo nagsasabi sa inyong lahat na maybe guys around me are intimidated. My walls are too high and wala lang talagang lalaking naglalakas loob na tibagin ang pader ko...hahaha :)) ocean deep....

There are guys, yes....yun nga, maybe they are intimidated. I often project that I'm not ready and not available. There's just too many problems in my life right now and alam mo yun? If I go into a relationship now, definitely this will be a crash and burn type.

But I do feel alone and empty. I don't question why though because I know where my pain is coming from. Hindi dahil single ako....well, maybe it adds up as a factor....

Minsan, may mga araw na gusto ko na lang mag-break down but I can't...deep inside me I need to vent it out pero I can't....my notion is "I can't show them that the situation is eating me up because the people I love might break down when I do".....

Kaya excited na ko mag Simbang Gabi, gusto ko kasi humiling sakanya....Isa lang naman hihilingin ko kay Lord ngayong pasko....bigyan niya lang ng lakas ng loob pamilya ko...alam ko naman na pagbibigyan niya ko....

When the time is right, maybe pwede na rin ako magbreak down...