That’s my FB status today and I’m planning to keep that forever until I feel I’m organized…I feel direction-less…I’m like a floating useless piece of crap…lol :)) [ang crap nga may silbi, ako wala?!]

I actually don’t have any sense of direction. May it be in answering a problem, walking around the street, driving, etc. I like everything spontaneous because I don’t like to limit myself much.

Pero ang hirap din pala…I tried to fix my life…but then again, it backfired. I don’t have any Plan B and that sucks…I think I’ve done my part…I mean, I don’t want to question him but why is it like this?! It is killing me everyday….WHY?! WHY?! WHY?!

Lord, you know how I feel about everything…2009 wasn’t my year….I lost a lot last year…

I lost:

> my grandpa

> my boyfriend

> and the Ondoy thing was a real tragedy

Just when I thought everything is sailing smoothly, you take away everything again…this is a part of your master plan and I am questioning this because it’s making me anxious…I don’t want to be anxious…it’s not a nice feeling….

I know you have a plan…tell me what to do…because I think I keep on making the wrong ones……what do I need to do?! tell me…

kung may drugs lang na nabibili para jan….matagal ko nang pinakyaw!!!