I'm hurting so badly....so bad....I can't even admit it to myself that I am...I just keep a happy exterior para hindi na ko tanungin ng mga tao...

it's so hard...I'm crying over a person who doesn't even know I am crying....I miss him so much but I just can't tell him....there's no reason for him to know anyways....

I'm just hurting....the pain is consuming me...all the more that I'm getting sick...

awhile ago, while inside the car...I was praying to him...I said, I won't complain on to how I'll die na...if he can get me already, I wish he would...my body is really on the verge of breaking....and I think it's only a matter of time now....

the sadness of not talking to him all the more makes me want to just sleep for eternity....sino nga ba niloko ko di ba? as if naman na ganun lang kadali lahat...

bahala na si batman....