I'm excited, Jonah's coming back...finally!!!

I felt relieved...it's been three months...I've been really really depressed...

The thing when you know that you have something...suddenly everything turns topseyturvey

as much as I want to be there for everyone, everytime, every minute...I'm sorry guys, I can't...I miss you all really...soon, you'll know why...but not now...don't ask...just listen...

try to listen to what i'm not saying...does it make sense? :]

I always smile, smiling eases the pain...try to smile, it takes a load off...

lately, na-realize ko, I've been putting up a wall again against people...guarding myself from them...action-reaction...perhaps...I've been contemplating a lot....I'm not as enthusiastic as I was before....before I knew....I don't know...tao lang kasi ako...natural reaction ko yun...it's very human...hahaha :]]

I dunno...I want privacy...this time, I want it...

the thing is, the moment that people knows about it....syempre, reaction nila, maaawa sila, they'll treat me like a handicapped person...I don't want that treatment....treat me normally...I don't want special treatment...that's why as much as I can, I try to be cheerful and healthy....

I told my mentors before, it's because I don't want them to worry, I can handle myself well, life goes on with or without me...ultimately, lahat naman tayo jan din pupunta, una unahan lang....

but reality is, the more I hide the truth, all the more it shows...so please don't ask....hahaha :]] your eyes won't lie to you...sooner or later...yes...you'll see...

I asked Jonah if I can go to their house in Batangas and sleepover....I just want to be with her...

eto yung mga panahon na kelangan ko ng matibay na pader na nasasandalan...God loves me....all my friends are coming back in time....just in time....I am grateful....sobra....