never been this close but yeah...this is it...

nag-iipon ako ng guts to do it...hahaha...takte...iyak na lang kaya ako?? lolz ^_^

even if I want to project to the whole world that I am okay...*sighs* kabaliktaran lahat ang nangyayare....

the last time I had this scenario, I was weak also but I had someone with me, telling me everything will be okay...that we'll get through it...

but I'm on my own now...my own battle with this disease...hahaha :)) kaya siguro ganito...

funny how things are...suddenly, old friends are available....walang kahirap hirap na hagilapin sila...before, I struggled hard just to see them but now, wala...walang kahirap hirap....

for the first time, I had to admit na natatakot ako...

I've always been prepared....ever since...but now, I don't know why....suddenly, naduduwag ako...I dunno why...

siguro kasi part of me is enjoying what has been...na-realize ko siguro na I haven't even been "a quarter there" yet in my life...I'm not even 25 for crying out loud....

but whatever his plan is....I'll stick to it...all I can do is fight with my faith and my strength...

April...the month...I need to face the music...haaayyy