I haven't been writing much lately. I've been very busy.
I want to write an open letter to the person that I've loved most....here it goes.
I want you to know that I'm doing fine. I hope you're doing okay as well. I just want to write you a letter to tell you how I feel right now.
I know you believe in soul mates. Admit it or not, you're the hopeless romantic type...just like me. Of all the people I've come across with, it was you out of a thousand billion. Ever felt that? We think a like in so many ways and even if you're far away, it feels like you were just near.
You've always given me that smile. Even though we were just talking, you were always reason enough for me to smile. Even though, we had our shares of troubles and pains, after all the years that I've known you, still, just thinking about you (your dimples, hahaha) makes my heart flutter.
Soul mates do not necessarily end up together. You know that right? I'm just happy that in this lifetime, I met someone like you. I'm already in that phase..the phase that I really feel lonely. I guess I can only hold on for so long...I don't want to reason out that I'm only human and that I'm prone to this, but I guess, this is my decision.
I'm trying to take things seriously. I feel that I'm old and I feel that my clock is ticking as a woman. I just want you to know that someone is taking care of me right now and it would be unfair if I don't take this seriously.
Of all the men that I've loved, I loved you the most and everyone knows that. I guess until now, you still have that special place in my heart that's why I'm having second thoughts on this relationship but since you've already let me go a long time ago, I guess, it's about time that I'd let go of you.
I want you to be happy Jay. I attest this to your next girlfriend, she'll be the luckiest girlfriend in the world because she'll have a wonderful boyfriend. Loving, faithful and charismatic. If I can just hug you right now, I would. I would've given you that big bear hug. hahaha :D and yeah, you guessed it, I am crying. LOL...