I haven't been writing much lately. I've been very busy.

I want to write an open letter to the person that I've loved most....here it goes.

dear hotdog,

       I want you to know that I'm doing fine. I hope you're doing okay as well. I just want to write you a letter to tell you how I feel right now.

      I know you believe in soul mates. Admit it or not, you're the hopeless romantic type...just like me. Of all the people I've come across with, it was you out of a thousand billion. Ever felt that? We think a like in so many ways and even if you're far away, it feels like you were just near.

      You've always given me that smile. Even though we were just talking, you were always reason enough for me to smile. Even though, we had our shares of troubles and pains, after all the years that I've known you, still, just thinking about you (your dimples, hahaha) makes my heart flutter.

      Soul mates do not necessarily end up together. You know that right? I'm just happy that in this lifetime, I met someone like you. I'm already in that phase..the phase that I really feel lonely. I guess I can only hold on for so long...I don't want to reason out that I'm only human and that I'm prone to this, but I guess, this is my decision.

     I'm trying to take things seriously. I feel that I'm old and I feel that my clock is ticking as a woman. I just want you to know that someone is taking care of me right now and it would be unfair if I don't take this seriously.

      Of all the men that I've loved, I loved you the most and everyone knows that. I guess until now, you still have that special place in  my heart that's why I'm having second thoughts on this relationship but since you've already let me go a long time ago, I guess, it's about time that I'd let go of you.

      I want you to be happy Jay. I attest this to your next girlfriend, she'll be the luckiest girlfriend in the world because she'll have a wonderful boyfriend. Loving, faithful and charismatic. If I can just hug you right now, I would. I would've given you that big bear hug. hahaha :D and yeah, you guessed it, I am crying. LOL...

lovelots,
em

I cannot wait for this movie. This is like the epitome of sexiness movie. OMG! I cannot wait for MAY 2012!!

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I tried sending Jon a text message. Twice. I'm really not expecting a reply though. I think he's mad. LOL :D I know how to piss-off guys. And by piss-off, I mean, really get them extremely mad. I'm a blunt person. I often do not care what others think of. I mean, I'm very honest. I don't want to tell you something that's not true just because it'll hurt your feelings. I'm grounded to reality and I am very harsh.

Jon and I are both Virgos. I can read him. He's my boy version. The first time we met, it was pure insanity. We talked for like 9 hours straight and I kinda got tired talking to him because he was so talkative. I met him because I was looking for Teejay. To cut the long story short, Jon found me while I was looking for my ex. Hahahaha :))

You could have guessed it. If you're a follower, you should know that Jon is in the US Navy. He's Fil-Am though. Both his parents are Filipinos. Born and raised. Both his sisters grew-up here in the Philippines. He was born in San Diego. He doesn't know how to speak Tagalog. Well, he does know a few words but his Tagalog is lousy. LOL.

As for me, I think, Long Distance Relationships work. I've experienced it first hand and it's the most wonderful experience. Trust is essential to every kind of relationship but when you are in a Long Distance Relationship, it is the most crucial part because without it, it simply fails.

I told my friend, I think I'm not ready to be in a "normal" relationship (with normal meaning, close proximity). I just think that I am too jealous when the guy I'm dating is actually 'near'. I have a lot of issues and I just can't give my full trust.

Boys would be boys. They are promiscuous by nature but I don't think that's enough reason for guys to cheat. I had my reasons why I was lenient with my previous relationship. One, he was in the military, that's reason enough. Two, it's a long distance relationship. Three, the trust is there.

I don't want to disclose another one. I'm trying to compose my thoughts but we'll see. I just want to rant that I sent him a text message. Hahaha :)

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I find the people in Facebook annoying. That's the main reason why I don't open it that much. People try to impress everyone else. Tipong pa-bonggahan eklavoo...Oh please. I don't need crap. People there are attention whores. Admit it. I am an attention whore but it gets tiring you know. Hahaha :) My life is nothing special. They find it amusing though that I have a ridiculous series of bad relationships. I wanted my friends to know what was happening but it came to a point that it became a circus. I guess that's why I learned to keep things from people. Too much information brings chaos. I'd rather keep my mouth shut. Hahaha :) People are so nosy. It annoys the hell out of me. At least, here, it's my own space. I can talk about anything and rant whatever and don't give a shit about anything :) Hahaha :P

And besides, I believe in traditional talking. Old-fashion way of communication through coffee is always the best way. Making my wall a chat room is really cheap. I realized that.

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I simply cannot wait for October 21! We will be watching the Sound of Music!! The hills are aliveeeeee!! Yayyyy <3

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